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Gloomy Days最近身体一直处于一种非常之差嘅状态，无论瞓几多，都系觉得精神状态好差，每日收工翻到屋企，几乎一摊系床度就会瞓着。思维一直都好乱，成日谂嘢都会逻辑紊乱。精神都好难集中，个脑时不时会不自觉咁处于一种空白状态，唔知自己做咁D乜。情绪都好唔稳定，成个人变得有D神经质，无啦啦对所有嘢都变得好敏感，好似乜都关自己事咁。感冒扁桃体发炎又不断咁光临我嘅身体。呢个周末双休，刚刚好俾自己一个反思嘅时间。 上个礼拜系EASON同学走佐嘅第一个礼拜，我又非常荣幸咁成为佐DELMAS唯一一位男性成员，对于一向唔识同女性同胞打交道嘅我嚟讲，有时候出去吃饭都唔知应该点好，唯有强逼自己讲多D，做多D，搞起D气氛咁咯。但系好多时都发觉自己讲D嘢好鬼死无聊，会搞到个场冷晒，应晒FRANKIE俾我个称号：冷场制造者.....而且大部分时候我揾唔到一个引起大家共鸣嘅话题。医生伯伯曾经教过我:"同同事朋友仔出去玩，就要放松自己，放开D，玩尽D，讲得难听D，就叫唔要脸，大家开心嘅话其实冇乜所谓嘅，但系千其唔好搞D低级趣味。"睇嚟我都仲系唔识点讲嘢，都唔敢讲嘢，慢慢嚟啦，比起一年前有进步嘅了。 工作开始慢慢开始上手，但系我对自己嘅表现就唔系太满意。大学个阵学校有个心理辅导员，俾佢睇佐睇，讲到我一大堆心理问题，总体归类就系过分追求完美：呢种倾向会令我有动力去努力学习、工作，为自己嘅目标奋斗。但系同时嚟讲，会对自己有过分高嘅要求，最后导致自己患得患失，求成心切，心理负担会增大，明明本身好容易做得好嘅嘢，会由于一堆心理障碍搞到越做越衰。摞上个礼拜嚟讲，真系唔知系身理问题定系心理问题，成日犯埋D无哩头嘅错误，觉得自己傻下傻下咁，都唔知系度做咁D乜。自己好多事情都好急，但系讲真我都唔知自己系度赶乜，阿妈成日叫我SLOW DOWN，但系我都仲未学识点样CONTROL自己。而且定制嘅计划成日都实行唔到。阿妈成日同我讲:"仔啊仔，你好识做schedule，不过个问题系，你唔识点去执行。"对于呢句话我最近先有比较真切嘅认识，我D计划的确系过于完美，过于理想化了。但系生活，特别我E家嘅生活，充满太多唔稳定嘅因素，好难话可以好好咁实行自己定落嚟嘅计划。我一路以嚟所谂嘅嘢都过于完美，偏偏理论同实际系会有差距嘅。 礼拜一接到阿妈个电话，下个礼拜同姨仔两家过嚟拜山。倾完之后唔知点解突然好挂住屋企，好挂住阿爸阿妈。有时候挂住屋企个阵，真系有D想喊，但系发觉自己已经冇眼泪了。谂翻自己嚟深圳做嘢都差唔多两年了，加埋大学，自己都成五、六年冇系佢哋身边了。好多D人听讲我系独仔之后，都会有一个问题：点解我屋企人会舍得我个独仔离开身边出嚟做嘢？就连女朋友屋企人听到之后都觉得不可思议，成日问我点解。其实我都唔知点解，可能真系因为我屋企人嘅思想非常OPEN同前卫。谂下两个50几岁仲玩网GAME、上QQ交网友玩视同频语音嘅老人家，应该就唔会咁难理解呢个问题了。系CMA PRD刚刚上个阵，广州嘅同事JANET过嚟培训我哋。我仲好记得佢讲过嘅嘢："人终归系要离开父母建立属于自己嘅生活嘅，耐佐就会惯嘅了。"的确，鸟仔迟早会离巢，越早经历得多，先会越早对属于自己人生嘅道路有概念，有计划。相比起一直未离开过爸爸妈妈身边嘅朋友同学，我何尝唔系获得俾佢哋多嘅嘢咧？ 每个人每个月都有几日情绪低落，经痛之后，生活继续。 Great Juven!!!Celebration！Bravo
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伟大嘅祖云达斯！伟大嘅意大利右边锋 —— 卡莫兰尼斯！ 番禺百万葵园02/MAR/2008 番禺 百萬葵園 SONIC-ERICSSON K800i SONY T1 DELMASDELMAS After Frankly speaking, i do not know much as i said about Africa. All contries on this continent are known to me through football games. Those reqirements and situation to me are as mysterious as this ancient land to the world. I have never heard of Pointe Noire, Lagos Apapa, Douala...these ports in my 24-year-life. And now, they will be a part of my daily job. These are great challenges to me as its quite different to American Lanes. But im not afraid of it because i am ready to face these challenges before i applied this position. My feeling was complicated:I was excited about new position. I was expecting to know new co-workers. I was eager to learn new knowledge. But in the other hand, I was missing my former colleagues. And I did not know what exactly should i do here so i felt confused. Fortunately, people here are nice and selfless, they were very willing to teach my and guide me to walk out the jungle. And there's a very very very coincidence happened on me at the first day i joined DELMAS. I found that a guy name Eason, DELMAS documentation clerk, was my very good friend whom has been scattered with me for decades. We entered the same kindergarten, we played together, our familes' friendship were spanning for generations. I was shock and exciting and happy to met him again. Finally...bless myself will be successful here. Last Day on 60F--Doc CMA60楼纪念特辑~ 终于....doc离开咗地王60楼...好唔舍得,好难过....
唔知以后仲可唔可以同废才基,珍姐,爽爽你哋一起吃中午饭,唔可以喺厕所茶水间撞到ALEX,SNIPER个阵讲下波经,唔可以再成日周末返工个阵再去FINANCE同HR问Crystal,Anna摞生果吃,倾闲计了.离开一直坐开嘅位置,唉...当初仲谂住可以一直坐到转CUS添.
礼拜五,神咁早就爬起身,摞住部机翻公司影翻D相,俾自己纪念下.Winter仲觉得我好莫明其妙,搬落去54楼嗟,有乜甘难过咧. 唉....都唔知应该点话佢知, 毕竟DOC太多女仔了,唔喺,应该话CMA太多女仔了,搞到好Q多男仔都好似变咗性咁,已经唔可以用男性嘅思维去揣摩,所以我个D真正称得上正常男人嘅,比较豪爽嘅Friend,都唔喺DOC嘅, 家阵要分开,真喺好Q郁闷吖~
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